Friday, April 23, 2010

One Tousand

I scurry to settle, subdue, subvert a silk noose
I lick my finger to smear your face
Blur tools erase stains until little remains
But off white and faded black, why not off black?
Why not everyone be free of objectivity?
But I cannot cancel the concerning, the working class.
One cannot surpass the limits of silence until one learns of this.
One cannot grasp violence in the palms of his fists
And let it drip down his fingertips in acrylic wisps
Of fine air, crisp and free on Fridays.
One must allow for arrogance, therefore letting in the cold breeze
Of faded white tee's.

But only on weekends.

During the week it's faded white sleeves.
Listen to the meek and praise their humdrumings.
Without one million little arms to carry your weight
Your subcollective would be emptied quickly by meer men
And then your full features would be emptied again.
What a shame.

What a shame to pretend you stand, unxeroxed.
The revolution will be inside of your television.
You will ignore the calamity like a calm casino bee
You lounge in good graces, gifted by giving arms
Such harm could be avoided were you to lay down your jaw
Let go of this paw, this tale, this lion
Let forth the streams of subtle air bubbles
Until nobody notices the noise anymore.
Because everyone seeks to decompose wholly
But nobody knows that dirt is made from skin
So if we do take what we give as we intend
Then nothing is new, so nothing is left but sad grins
On grimy faces and few traces of that even.

So let it end here, in false pretense
Let imagination emerge from internal combustion
Of sparked synapses and blurted lusting
Let go of grabbing hold and let flow the stone cutter's colds
Soon the sick will control the old
So now the grass is green from decay, not dismay, simple certainty.
Alarming, yes.

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Hey look I'm blogging again. Who's excited? I am.

I found this in an email sent to myself two months ago...no idea when I wrote it


Walk through the woods, painting
The trees a yellow string
Watching the world watching you

Stairs where you tripped and stumbled
Led you up to your noiseless
Rooftop view of the downtown scene

The traffic lights turn off
The endless human stars
You point your fingers toward
The world you tore apart

A mountain mouth grew up and
Some sunken eyes appeared
You planned to flood the room but
You're straddled by fears

That any other hands could grace the walls
You topple over
Your flourish is admittance
That painted trees look much too real

Monday, April 12, 2010

This is the first song I've written in four months.

My eyes watch you divide
I'm caught in your cold
In a breeze that could hold
And all your words made of snow
And I know where this goes
I just don't want to give up on all my ghosts
At all, at all, at all.

So would you choose my disease?
The one they can't diagnose
The cure is right under your nose
Or would you rather to know
Well I could tell you you're ill
But nobody could cure those chills
At all, at all, at all.

Well we've always made the best with what we've got.
You let your dreams spill over to your thoughts
You let the clouds and the oceans all collide
You fold me in so I can watch you divide.

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Dirt Caked Folds

Take these hands, empty more now than ever
Turn them over, hide the dirt stained lines
Trace the veins over knuckles, kiss the fingers

I want to be used by you.
I am a funcion.
I am eyes to see and a mouth to convince.
I am only what I am put to do.
Please do not confound me.
Do not ask me what of myself, what of mine.

I just want to be used.
That is all I have for you.
I offer you everything.
Complete and uncomplex.
And yet, this makes me less than human?

Sunday, March 28, 2010

A Change for The Latter

I made a change for the better
A shift
Pause, open me up
Move the bigger gear left, change the medium
Close me up, check the headlights.

I made a change for what I needed to be yesterday.

I sped up an engine that's outdated.

All I honestly needed was to be able to go.
I can't compete with new, clean, models.
I can't compare to complex design.
I am complete as is, but not quick to start.

I'm quick to back up, to change gears.

I'm slow to learn though.

I changed into who I should have been a bit late.

I am now impressive yesterday.

I don't know what I need to turn to today.
All that I can say is, maybe this could be okay?

Well, I feel the vines creeping into my machinery anyway.

Monday, March 8, 2010

Salt

Your face, drawn taut
Muscles feel bigger than they usually do around your jawline
They emerge from under the surface like pulled ropes
Drawing your mouth down, into an awkward position
Your skin feels tight, like a mask
Like after time spent in the sun

You inhale your air nicely
Your body, mostly water, meshes
You combine, store, process

Your skin, does it feel like carved stone?
The forced lines, wrinkles, folds
It's so very human, but so odd to see.

We never quiet look like ourselves.

Why does this happen to me?

Whose face is this?

Why...why now?

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Swoon Boy, Swoon

You may find your cell, circles
To be quite suited to your pacing purple eyes
You may retreat to corners
And thoughts will pass us by, illuminate in lights

We hide, from our own ways
We stay, we pray for silence

But simply this is complex and you can't stop it
No you can't stop these fits.

So.

You may find our thoughts, circles
An honest feeling for your time, too tired to try
You can't seek peace in others
The cars all passing by, are just machines but so are
Dreams of a life that stays the same.

Pray for silence.
We pray for silence from our own minds.